Me..

Hmmm..probably I'll dedicate this entry to one of my best friend and for some people who wanted to know about me. I actually wanted to blog this entry quite long time ago. But sometimes, I just think that it isn't that appropriate in the sense like are you trying to boast or telling others what to do and stuff. But probably after my friend's blog, there is something about ME in ~my life~ that some close friends need to know.

Hmmm..I'm not somebody who have supernatural power like people in Heroes and stuff. I'm not someone who is as holy as a lot of Catholics in this world. I'm not somebody like a magician like David Blaine. In fact, I'm just a normal person like everyone else..but I was probably given something implicitly that I don't know what is it actually.

Hmmm..all through ~my life~, I live getting inspired and trying to inspire others too. I don't know whether I'm better to be a psychiatrist or psychologist, though I'm not taking those fields of study cause sometimes, it is just normal for me to feel something that I think that everybody should feel. But I was wrong. I'm the only one who feel it. Am I lonely? Not at all...I just feel those things. And those things actually help me to help people who might have problems. I mean not those supernatural power, just probably something that I'm so use to sense it. Reading people's mind?hmmm..not really? I'll probably say is sensing and feeling those things.

Hmmm..sometimes this things trouble me cause I know too much and sometimes, realising that you can't help somebody it makes matter worse. And of course, the worse is when those things are related to you and you know it, that is worst of all. I've tried to live up ~my life~ to avoid complications, but as we all know, in reality, those things can't happen. And talking about things that relate to you, running away is like jumping off from the cliff. Trying to curb those things is just like putting an egg on a horn. This is the reality and I'll choose the latter one though both options result risky and deadly.

Hmmm..what's the use posting up such thing? Issit to let people know how great I am? As I say, I don't enjoy any of those. It is probably to let people know that why sometimes I do force them to do something. Because I do sense those things, I myself got confuse with those things that I can sense or feel. Good things is that I just can help more people. Bad things is I know too much. Sometimes, I'll just like Michael Scofield's quote, " the less you know, the better it will be".

Hmmm..I'm not those smarties like Michael Scofield, or Naruto character of Shikamaru or Kakashi. They inspire me to be a smart aleck, of course I know I couldn't be but sometimes, it is nice if we can be like them. I'm kinda blur having to post this entry. But just as a dedication to my close friends, not just specific one, but to some others that I'm not a weirdo. I'm somebody who is given a chance, probably by Him the Almighty, to know something that you all think I don't know. Hmmm..not to say it's hard to run away from letting me know, I just sense it out of nowhere. Probably I observe a lot of things, or there is something in my mind that I used a lot more than a normal person use. I just can't explain to you all why I can do it sometimes. So just gimme some trust and tell me your stuff. Even if you all don't want to tell me..it's okay. But when I ask you, it is through your clean heart whether you all want to let me know or not. Before that, I'm not somebody called by God to be Eric Almighty and stuff. I'm just a normal person, who think more abstract things. Who thinks the other way from how other people think. Who sense environment more sensitive a little. and who FEELs what you FEEL..I'm a normal person..